Excited?

I'm having a hard time getting excited about leaving next week. Maybe it's because of all the uncertainties we've experienced. It's like you can never really count on anything when you are in the military. We weren't sure that Tom would be coming home in December and then this last week not knowing if Will and I would be going with Tom. Obviously Tom did come home, but it was a guessing game the whole time. He is. He isn't. Each day the story would change.